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Jan 22, 2013

Today Was the Great Because...

I hate to be that optimistic person, but I feel really good right now. 
(I wanted to put real good but that is not grammatically correct)/ 
at 1:00am I finished my first ever draft of a real-life television pilot.
I wasn't freakishly tired during my 8:30am class and we watched some classy Lumiere films.
Bad hair day was covered up with a beanie easily enough. 
The Tuesday forum was both amazing and mind-blowing and WONDERful (more on that later).
I remembered to bring a lunch.
Boss liked the project I've been working on.
I like the project I've been working on.
Willem proposed as I was passing him in the hall. 
(Told him I'd think about it). 
Made myself a gourmet dinner of mac n' cheese with edamame beans (you know, for protein or whatever).
My car wouldn't start, which instead of being obnoxious is kind of just funny to me.

Finally got to see ARGO. 
With a film buddy who really knows how to appreciate a good flick.
The only theater playing Argo was 30 minutes away, which sort of made it feel like a mini-adventure and I think seeing movies should be mini-adventures now and again. 
Listened to good music. Had good conversation. All those important things.

I love, love, loved Argo. It is definitely not for the faint of heart but it had such a good tone. I'm big on tone today it's all we talking about in Writer's Room. So intense ALL THE WAY THROUGH. You think they're safe but they NEVER ARE. 
Ben Afleck, you son of a cuss, you pulled off a wonderful heist movie. AND IT'S REAL..ish. 
The 70s-80s Production Design!? Wonderful. All the Hollywood jokes? Perfect.
That look in Ben's eye when he knows it's time to be a bad-A? Yes.
The characters were wonderful and lovable. 
There were so many good twists and twists and more twists. 
I also smuggled Kool-Aid Squeez-its into the theater (don't tell). 

Now I'm eating Phish food while I study grammar. Perfect ending to today.

Yesterday was great too. Inauguration crepe party, Italian pizza, and wedding dress shopping with one of my best girls (see also:EVERYONE I KNOW IS ENGAGED). 

Jan 21, 2013

Valentine's Day

I am actually excited for Valentine's Day this year. My friend Angela and I are having a party for the loved and the lovelesst to come together in the noble cause of dipping things in chocolate and eating them. 

If you have a child like Molly you can easily send adorable Valentines to loved ones.

me n' Mollz:

post photo shoot playing:

My personal fave:

As for the childless, we're left to cut out letters from magazines so we can leave anonymous love notes on the porches of people we have secret crushes on. 

Happy Early Valentine's Day from Lawsy Photography and Molly the Cutest.

Jan 20, 2013

Finding the Not-ONEs.

yes, this picture is random, but i wanted to add a pic in case anyone wanted to PIN this.

This is dedicated to anyone who has ever had a relationship NOT work out. You know, all 5 of us.  NOT to the three friends of mine who got engaged YESTERDAY. Congratulations, by the way.

Recently I had the opportunity to provide comforting words to a friend of mine. It is an interesting thing, when giving comfort/advice, how often we end up saying words we need to hear ourselves.

This was the best I could come up with, "Remember you're not the only girl who has been completely shafted by a guy. It happens to all of us. That's why movies have happy endings, because we don't want them to be like life."

Sometimes we don't get what we want. Even if we want it really bad and wish every time the clock strikes "11:11" that it will come true.  

Only hours later another friend recounted her experience with something she saw in BYU's art exhibit Beauty and Belief. "There was this fantastic little piece, two door signs from a 14th century mosque. They were Arabic calligraphy carved in ivory and it translated to say 'O Opener of all doors/Open for me the best door.'" 

Sometimes we spend too much time trying to force things that shouldn't be. I always like to say to people, "You can't marry everyone." Of all things in life this is one we only need to make work one time. That should be easy enough, right? And yet we stress and stress when things don't go write with one person. It hurts and we cry and angst (it's a verb now) and want to throw things at peoples' heads.  Then we make dramatic statements like, "I'll never love again" or write songs or take up boxing and then we get over it, or we don't depending on our choices. 

Back to my first friend: She responded to my advice, oh so wisely, with "And eventually, probably not right away, but eventually, you will find something/someone that makes you even happier than you were before. The hard part is waiting. Waiting for a day, you don't know when, will come." 

We (I am going to go out on a limb and say especially girls) get SO attached to people we have "crushes" on and it becomes a life-or-death, this-is-THE-love-of-my-life situation. 

When, maybe, most of the time, it's not. Let's see, pretty sure that the boy I had a crush on when I was in 7th grade ended up being a drug addict. I had written his name on the bottom of my shoe, how could I ever move on from that?

I did. Again and again and again and every time I've been convinced on some sort of level "he is the ONE" but however many guys later...there is still just one "winner" and I haven't found him yet. I've watched lots of my friends find their "not the ONEs" over and over again, it is a part of life. 

We need to trust that when we get to the Best Door it will open for us. We won't have to cling to the legs of someone who doesn't love us as they try and walk away. We won't have to change ourselves to fit someone else's "type". We will find something that fits and that will be mutually beneficial for all parties involved. 

Sometimes I go to the store and buy something that doesn't fit quite right. Maybe it isn't a color I love or has an ugly bow I think would be easy to "just cut off". I still buy it because it's SO CUTE. I usually regret this. Not always at first, but the regret comes. We should accept if orange doesn't look good on us or if that shirt only looks good on mannequins and not humans that are shaped like humans. Or maybe we hate lace even though everyone else LOVES it. 

It is the same with relationships. We can scratch our heads about why things look so good on the hanger but don't fit right or don't feel right but we don't want to live with things/people that don't feel good and right and comfortable or don't make us feel like our BEST selves.

Also, if it's sold-out (emotionally unavailable) we just need to move on. Sometimes we need to go to lots and lots of stores to find something that fits perfect.

I can't believe I just compared dating to clothing, every girl better love this post. 

We need to invest in things that are the best for us. Early in this post I semi-criticized movies for always ending happy, but I do believe in happy endings. I think we all have it in us, if we make the right choices to feel like a princess or feel like we won the National Championship at the end of our stories. We see in movies the struggle that the characters go through to end up all hunky-dory at the end. We have to endure our own struggles, we have to learn from the bad experiences so that we can earn our happy endings. Spoiler: our bad experiences will last longer than a 2 hour movie but we will survive--just like we all made it through Russell Crowe's singing and still loved Les Miserables.

We need to seek out the people who love us for us. Who let us be the best version of the person we want to be. Someone who will make sacrifices for us and someone who we want to make sacrifices for.  Someone who doesn't mock the things that make us us. Someone who loves us as madly as we love them and visa versa. Because what's the point of a relationship if you don't feel really, truly loved? Why buy the dress unless it makes you look really, truly awesome? And why does anyone wear 4 inch heels? Really?

Last thought: Online shopping can be a disaster, but works great for some people!
I had to carry this analogy as far as I could.

Jan 11, 2013

How To DIY

So there's this thing called Pinterest that is really good at giving you wonderful ideas about things you want to make or be or laugh at. It gives you this sense of empowerment as if you could do anything you  put your mind to.

Here is how I did Pinterest over Christmas Break. 

1. Found this via Pinterest. 

2. Showed the picture to my mom.

3. Asked mom to make it.

4. Told her I like blue.

5. Watched her make it.

6. Made a bow bracelet out of felt--NOT inspired by Pinterest--but really easy to make in while mum slaved over the skirt. 

Pinterest is incredible when you really know how to use it.

My mom would not, however, approve of these photos because the skirt is wrinkly, but I had to take them real fast and pack to go home. oops!

Jan 2, 2013

New Years Resolutions

1. save up and buy my own 5D...or maybe 6D. this means eating more eggs and less things that are expensive.
2. eat more than one meal a day each day. pack my lunches and breakfasts. 
3. make a music video for at least 4/16 songs on the album Red.
4. exercise...anything really, just so i don't die young. but preferrably something that will give me a sexy bod.
5. graduate from uni
6. be a photographer for reals because turns out i enjoy it.
7. go exploring outside of my usual places
8. see our short in some festivals.
9. loose the anxiety/angst i've been dragging around lately. love people more. be happy for other people
s successes. 
10. blog more? maybe. write more definitely. write something everyday.

Okay, these are not so much resolutions as a to-do list but I like them.