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Feb 28, 2012


"the only way to be happy is to love. Unless you love, life will flash by." -The Tree of Life

Just watched this movie and I really liked it. I thought parts of it were overwhelmingly gorgeous. I want to be swallowed up in it and fall asleep to the creation of this wonderful place we live. Aren't we lucky? Also, I loved: "he's in God's hands now." "he always was..."

God is a real part of our lives it's nice when He doesn't get written out of everything.

I almost stopped watching halfway through, not because it wasn't mesmerizing but because it touched on something that I am terrified of--and not just that freaky swimming snake.

I love the 50s...absolutely love the dresses, the style, the Life magazines, the ads, etc. But nothing bothers me more than the 50s housewife image-- the idea of not having a voice, of being controlled by another person. Yeah, I'm kind of a feminist hippy. Mostly I just hate/get so uncomfortable around scary dads/husbands. I don't think anyone should be scared in their own home ever, the world is scary enough outside. But 50s or 2010s it's happening everywhere all around us.

I'm grateful that I've been taught my whole life that I matter. That I've held leadership positions and been able to have opinions. Someday I'll get married and I'll be happy to have a husband who leads the household and hopefully respectful children, but no yelling, no fighting. Which I guess is something I should work on...because I kind of enjoy it.

I will never forget my professor who told me to "have an opinion dammit.[in a loving way]" And I hope my kids grow up the same way, with opinions. That they are thinkers, explorers and unrestrained creators...hopefully they can do that without being total terrors.

Sometimes my dream job is to go around empowering young women (not saying women are always the victim, we can be mean too) and telling them, us, all of us. That we matter.

Of all the crazy, beautiful, breath-taking creations around us we are the most precious to our Heavenly Father. And he created us to be vibrant, passionate, decision making human beings.

I shared the italicized part of this quote in my talk on Sunday:

"It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities, it is with the awe and the circumspection proper to them, that we should conduct all our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no 'ordinary' people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilisations -- these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whome we joke with, work with, marry, snub and exploit -- immortal horrors or everlasting splendours. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously -- no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption. And our charity must be a real and costly love, with deep feeling for the sins in spite of which we love the sinner -- no mere tolerance or indulgence which parodies love as flippancy parodies merriment."

--C. S. Lewis, From The Weight of Glory.

Do you have any idea who you are?


babetta said...

Gosh dang. C.S. KNEW stuff. So grateful for wise souls who share/d.

Also, Terrence Malick. You should watch New World. It's a lot like Tree of Life, but with an empowered female for you. :) It's really, really beautiful. Me thinks you will love.

Courtney said...

Why are we always on the same wavelength? I must admit, these thoughts, and almost everything that C.S Lewis said so brilliantly (almost everything, only because I'm not as genius as him yet)have weighed heavily on my mind lately.

The awareness of a creator, who is suddenly aware of the truth of their power. Just how true it is that we create everything, and that there is no lesser or even 'better,' there is just the person who is aware of their divine possibility and the person that isn't. Doesn't the mere fact that we're all just as immortal as the person we're talking about or to (whether that be in a negative or positive light, male or female, bond and free)fill you with unbound happiness?

I think I broke my own brain writing all of that. Doesn't make it less exciting though.

It's just so cool to think that our sexuality,our physical features, our pains, our childhoods, our nationalities, and even our genders don't define us in a creative sense...in an immortal sense. It makes me a LOT less prejudice and judgmental to think in that way.

And also, I ENJOY being a woman. I think it's wonderful. And I enjoy men, too.

And I enjoy you!